Hey people I'm back again.... well I guess it's time for an up date lol.
The Good
*Happy Dance Time!!*
I'm so proud of myself and my Nikesque just do it campaign! About a month ago at an Georgia Dept. of Labor workshop I was informed that the YMCA gave financial assistance scholarships. Yeah I was shocked as well but the process was pretty easy I'm still waiting on my letter to tell me what/if I will have to pay anything. *crosses fingers* LOL. Any way it feels great to work out again, walking on that treadmill gives me quiet time to really think about things, which is always a plus. I have a goal to be able to get in one of those sexy costumes for the ATL Caribbean Carnival next year, I know it may not be a goal someone else would pick but it's something I've always wanted to do and I don't know if I will ever get to Trinidad Tobago to be in theirs lol. Also I just want to be toned and my flexibility to get better (get your mind outta the gutter people) I'm not sure how many people know but I have had to fight with Ole' Aurthur since child hood I even had doctor tell me it might be rheumatoid lol I laughed in his face and we just gonna fight that and the best way is to become more physically fit.
Okay for my other GOOD news lol. I'm in school as many know and hopefully I will be finished with the Associates part of my journey by next summer *crosses fingers and toes* lol. I'm taking Sociobiology and Accounting I (yes I'm bored silly I know all this stuff) right now and should be finished week after next. Then I tackle Humanities (Western Civilization <<~~~ whatever that means), Physical Science, and Accounting II (this I'm looking forward to because it will be new material). I will keep you guys posted on this education process as well, lol plus I may need proofreaders for my papers and such lol.
Lastly and I guess the most important is the time I took with ME. Yep I know, I know, you live with yourself everyday but sometimes life, work, and responsibilities get in the way of taking
time with yourself. Guess you can say it was some realizations of sorts.....as it refers to my status as "the crazy cat lady" or "becoming someone's devoted wife". Had to sit back and look at me, I don't complain (I may joke around a bit though) about the man situation here in Atlanta, but it's more than just them I had to figure out me and what was stopping me. You would never guess but it is
TERROR FEAR . Why am I fearful? Well my last major relationship I really did think my judgement on his character was correct *shakes my head* BOY was I wrong! Also I realized that to make a relationship successful why would I "date" someone I wouldn't even want to be friends with that defeats the purpose! See in friendship you have communication, trust, loyalty, and intimacy......see how this correlate to what everyone needs for a successful relationship, my readers are intelligent so you get where I'm going with that. There are men trying to talk to me but I go at the angle yeah your handsome, nice, and all but I don't feel that I want to be friends with you energy then why waste both of our times building a relationship (just dating or serious) without that. Also I'm not trying to have sex with anyone who I haven't taken their last name or we are in a uber-committed relationship the emotional and safety risks are just to great to ignore!
The Bad
Venting 101
Well onto the not so good I'm still unemployed! Yeah I'm not the only one but I'm finding it's hard to get assistance if you don't have a house full of chillin' or disabled, or you just have laziness down to an art form no one wants to help you. Getting something as simple as food stamps is such a headache and I actually need them. Don't worry I found another way to skin a cat there are several food banks in Atlanta that can help as well as good friends who have food stamps that are willing to help so I will be fine there. So why am I still frustrated well it's the first part of June as you know RENT time I got it (well most of it) and we can work it out but with all my expenses (no they aren't that much) I'm still feeling the strain and I hate it!!! You can call it confessions of a forcibly rehabbed workaholic but I WANT TO WORK DANG IT!!! I've put in applications, resumes, and proposals for contracts, put my business cards all over the place put up Craigs List ads the whole nine!! Nothing, nada, (insert swear words here) , *crickets*....you get the idea. I know it will change but I'm used to working and making my own way and not waiting for a check it makes me feel like I'm cheating myself and the system (I know I'm not the only one believe me I know). This whole thing is just frustrating and terrifying!!!! [Yes I need a hug!]
The Not So Attractive
-aka- The Ugly Ish!!
So now for the madness I had a disturbing Skype conversation the other day with a friend of mine serving in our wonderful United States Armed Forces (note sarcasm) *rolling eyes really hard*. You know I hadn't talked to her in a minute and she tells me causally "Oh yeah I just got out of the mental hospital on Tuesday." I'm like WHAT THE HECK!!! Which would be anyone's reaction to news such as this. Anyway, you know me I started asking questions and lots of them because I wanted to know why would they put her in a place like that! Well she has had some trouble with a neighbor of hers ( I really hope it is he who is a nut case) yelling obscenities and threats through the walls in the apartment she's called the police, talked to commanding offices, chain of command , you know the whole bureaucratic nine yards. What does she get a recommendation to see the base psychiatrist and what does he do recommend she go in for a psych evaluation *shaking my darn head* (yes I want to cuss but it's not that type of blog). So she volunteers to go my guess is to exonerate her name so she does the week they find nothing wrong but still give her medication to treat what they said she went in for *blank stare*! Really! Seriously! I don't understand that logic of giving someone medications (with numerous side-effects I looked it up) for something they don't supposedly have! This burns me up because I've seen this before and it's not fair to that person or their families! BUT A REALLY BIG BUT!! There is a little part of me that wonders is there something really wrong because she's had emotional issues before in many of her stations and I worry is this military really taking the time to evaluate these service men and women to make sure they have a stable and healthy state of mind. You see so many veterans who went in normal and come out NUTS, something like 1 in 4 homeless persons is a veteran and of the homeless veterans (guessing because it's been a minute since reading the article) it's something like 3 out of 5 have some form of mental illness do you see the pattern here! Something definitely needs to change here ASAP, how can they defend our country when they are mentally unstable at the hands of the country they are trying to serve! I'm going to keep praying for her that she just doesn't nut up and would advise others to do so as well.
Well that's the end of this update... I have more blog posts coming soon especially a review of a product I'm using for cleaning my house I sooooo love this stuff. Until next time.... be easy, *dueces*!
